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Holding the asp in my hand, terrified in letting it go and terrified in holding it, scared of the burning of the twin fangs piercing skin.

 Cold, calculating, yet burning with a deep seated anger that is directed to the asp in my hand.

The flicker of the asp’s tongue moves in indifference, in, out, up, and down with it’s eyes staring into my very soul challenging me to act.

Torch light casts half world shadows on the glossy scales echoing the rhythmic breathing of the folly that I hold in my hand.

Copper colored brown scales flicker with a destructive beauty that mesmerizes the intellect and speaks to the primal rages within the breast.

Rage that burns and plunges my emotions into a lake of fire and shorts my intellect; rage that engulfs my being and cuts my divinity from the gods in two.

Action that was swift and destructive ensues as the asp was cast from my presence and into the shadows of the neither that dance in awkward suggestive trance like moves.

It was a dance that was danced before as the last vestibules of light sputter and are extinguished as the torch of spirit is plugged into the ice water of rage.

As the light returns to the plains of emotion all that is shown is the charred rendered earth. The cracked and blackened emotional body pops and hisses as the fires of rage consume its last portions of fuel. The twin bite marks of the asp clearly showing on the burnt forearm.

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A Poem

There is a dark place in all of us that we do not wish to look at directly; a place that permeates a creeping contagion that defiles the soul and corrupts the intellect. The dark places that cannot be looked at directly for our minds will be sundered and our hearts wrenched as the pains of the past gush out and attack the senses.  

Foul entity that stalks the darkness of that abyssal place looking for any movement on the edge of the twilight that borders your domain, Dark entity hunting, crouching and scraping on the tomb like silence of forgetfulness.

As I stare into the bleakness I can hear the dark creature’s breath. Always hearing its breath and always hearing, just on the edge of my senses, its presence.

Gnashing my teeth and with strained breath.

Blinking against the sound of the leather wings of the heralds of the night my composure starts to unravel.

The time of delay is near over and the assault will commence.

The half dark of twilight is reaching from the border lands.

The twilight, which marks the domain of the contagion, reaches forward ever faster.

The voices of nights heralds are still heard yet my eyes are failing.

Light is lost and my lungs are filled with the acrid stink of fear.

Sharp claws of panic are thrust into my chest and choke the heart.

Weak I fall to my knees and gasp down air as my lungs feel four sizes smaller.

Hysterical desperation comes over me like a cold wet blanket sucking the heat from my actions and dulling the mind. A desperation that is so complete it fills my soul with the chill of the grave.

Pain seers the emotional body and wracks the mind with waves of memories that leave the body in a deathlike state.

A cock crowing in the distance trumpeting the coming of the dawn and salvation comes on the combed head of dawn’s herald.

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Joy to you on this festive day of Ostara! The goddess Ostara is an old German goddess of the land. She is depicted as a young woman in her height of fertility and beauty. With the coming of Ostara, which is also astrological equinox, the Earth Mother is taking off her winter blanket and waking up to warmer weather and glorious spring flowers. As we can testify here in South Texas Ostara has given us good rains which has made for a bumper crop of wild flowers and flowering trees.

Some of the celebratory activities of Ostara is that of blessing the fields and the plows for the upcoming planting. As our European Ancestors prayed and asked for the blessings of Ostara for a plentiful growing season we can also take this time to look out our own endeavors and ask for a blessing of fertile enterprise.

As the celebration of Ostara is also the equinox we should look at this time as a time of renewal and balance. Just as the sun’s rays are in a balance today between both poles we can also balance the shining of our own light as we move about the world.

Be joyous and decorate your life and your house with all of the wonderful trappings of spring. Bring out the decorated eggs and eat a chocolate bunny or two as you tip you node to Ostara and to spring.


Blessings and love to all.

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The subject of this blog has been on my mind for some time. That subject is what it means to be a Piscean. It is noted that this topic is subject to the thoughts and the memories of this Piscean and it is my own interpretation of personal experience. Yet these personal experiences are general and will provide a solid frame work for this entry.

So what is a Piscean? Anyone that has a rudimentary knowledge of astrology knows that the time of Pisces 22 February – 21 March. Others with a little more knowledge of astrology would know that Pisces rules the 12th House of the Zodiac which is sometimes called the God House. In addition, Pisces is ruled by the energies of the planets of Neptune and Jupiter. The term ‘ruled by’ is stated as giving a major influence to that particular sun sign. In the case of Neptune the influences that are parted is the breakdown or the fostering of illusions depending on how the person is viewing life. The illusions in question come in the form of the duality that surrounds us in the world of form. These illusions also take the form of impossible relationships, escapism, and addictions. In general the illusions are anything that are not real or based on a lie.

Jupiter has the influence of joy, expansion, and luck. In this case Jupiter helps the Piscean to expand the situation that they are in. This includes the positive situations and also the fostering of illusions. In the case of Jupiter this planet will help the Piscean in any way that the Piscean finds important at that time.

The third influence on the Piscean is that of the Sun. When I talk about the Sun it needs to be viewed as the place that the spirit is expressing itself in a material world. The influence of the Sun needs to have structure to express the experiences that we have come to enjoy. There is an inherit conflict here. That conflict is that the Sun energy needs to have structure while the Piscean energy is removing that structure to return to spirit and become one with the creator. This desire to express in structure yet knowing that the structure is an illusion puts the Piscean in a quandary. Structured self expression is hard when all you want to do is pull the world down and return to the Creator. A viscous circle indeed!

The above conflict is the basis to what most people understand about Pisceans and that they are dreamy, delusional, prone to addiction, self torturing and moody. It is difficult not to escape when you are in direct conflict with yourself between the illusion of the material and the reality of the spirit. If you are a Piscean you will have no problem seeing my point after a little soul searching.

In the case that you are not a Piscean I will give you an example. Put yourself in a movie theater and you are watching a movie that you can interact with. That is to say that your actions in the audience have a direct effect on what happens on screen. Just about any person gets caught up in their part of the movie and would feel a bit of disappointment when the film was over. Yet there is nothing against watching that film again to feel included. This goes on until you know that the movie will always end and that in the end you will be left with only disappointment. Why the disappointment, because no matter how much you enjoy the film it is not tangible. It is an illusion so you move to the next item which then plays out in the same manner as all things in this world are nothing more than a illusion. To the uninitiated this would be absurd as a rock bouncing off your head is very real feeling indeed. When you take the basis of many spiritual philosophies that state all things in this world change showing us the impermanence of what we think is permanent. This then shows us that even our emotions and our thoughts follow the same course. They come and they go. They change with our perceptions. My favorite is to look at the color blue. There is no way to verify that the color blue that I see is the color blue that anyone else sees. So we move from one theater to the next looking for something that is real yet understands that everything that we see is an illusion. The Piscean feels lost and cast out in the tempestial ocean. In this state of mind the Piscean decides to flip the coin.

That flip side is to choose to believe in something. The logical of the Piscean is that if I focus on one thing it will become a focus point which I can then find my way back from the stormy sea. Now, depending on the choice, the Piscean finds the lighthouse or they take on water and become a casualty of the vast emotional sea that truly is Pisces. The wrong choice is to invoke the Piscean keywords of ‘I believe’ on objects of the dualistic world. In other words, the Piscean starts to believe that the movie is real. This leads to delusional behavior for when the Piscean invokes ‘I believe’ it becomes solid to them. This is the start of Piscean addictions. Deep down the Piscean knows that the object of believe is an illusion. This is compounded with the influence of the Sun stating that loosing yourself is not an appropriate way of self expression. Before they know it the Piscean is caught in the net of bad influence.

The greatest weakness of the Piscean is also the greatest strength; the ability to confront illusion and dismantle it all with ‘I believe’. This takes practice and spiritual training which is daunting in this time of turmoil that does not foster the discipline of self reflection and self mastery. When a Piscean invokes the ‘I believe’ and directs it to the reality of spirit it becomes a beacon to the Creator who rushes in and saves the Piscean.

The goal of the Piscean is to understand that they are in the world yet are not of the world. The use of structure to pursue self expression of spirit is the key. Just as people use tools to build a house the Piscean needs to use experience to evolve the spirit.

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Blessings and love to all my readers on this winter day.

There are times in our life that we have to wait for a divine promise. These times are usually a path of peaks and valleys. The peaks come from remembering the divine promise to you that has been stated, verified, and then verified again. The valleys come from acting in the realm of duality and material experiences were we have both feast and famine. In a sense we concentrate on our senses and not on our unchanging spirit. So what is being done is taking our eyes off the divine and in a sense losing faith. As I stated in a previous entry titled ‘What is Faith’ the definition of faith that makes the most sense is:

Faith (Pali: Saddhā, Sanskrit: Śraddhā) is an important constituent element of the teachings of the Buddha—both in the Theravada tradition as in the Mahayana. Faith in Buddhism derives from the pali word saddhā, which often refers to a sense of conviction. The saddhā is often described as:

  • a conviction that something is
  • a determination to accomplish one’s goals
  • a sense of joy deriving from the other two

In the case of losing faith is a failure to maintain one or all three qualities of faith. What we do is get the promise and foster a conviction to that promise which gives us energy to accomplish the goal that in turn gives us joy because the promise is being acted on. The problem is we are experiencing a world that is based on hours and days and not months and years as computers and technology has compressed time. In turn our patience and tolerance level has been reduced in capacity. As a Druid it is my spiritual and craft practice to put myself into the rhythms of the Earth Mother and to take her timing of cyclic seasons and moon phases. Yet even I fail to comprehend the total picture of holding both the timing of spirit and the timing of the earth in a balanced perception.

The act of losing faith has three common factors. The first factor is the divine promise is given and we act on that promise but with a false sense of conviction. I state a false sense of conviction because true conviction would see the promised delivered and not waiver. In simple words we are not convinced that the divine can deliver on the promise.

The second factor is determination to accomplish the goal. The promise is given, the marching orders are sent, and we move on those orders. Determination here is a mindset coupled with an action. Determination is then lost when we act on the promise and the fruits of the action are not readily visible. This leads to the lack of patience which causes a questioning of the divine promise which causes a loss of faith.

The third factor is simply, joy; when proper faith is achieved the joy floods into our lives from the divine source. The sense of joy is lost when the accomplishment is not working in accordance to our own expectations that are set in a dualistic world. The call is to look beyond duality and fix ourselves into the transcended that is our higher selves. Once we shift our vision from the material to the eternal and restate the promise we can begin anew.

The most correct course of action to take once we get a divine promise is to look at that promise from the proper perspective. That perspective is to look from our transcended eyes of the higher mind which dwells in spirit. This proper vision is obtained through spiritual practice which allows you to center on your own divine nature which never leaves the presence of the creator. As the spiritual connection is strengthened conviction follows as the body now feels the presence of spirit.

As our conviction increases our determination to accomplish the goal is put forward and our actions follow our conviction. Joy follows shortly after since we are now working toward our divine goal with a single mind set which is not attached to the outcome of our action. We are acting in a spirit derived state which is transfixed on the higher mind which is in the direct presence of the creator. It is this state that all miracles are accomplished through.

Maintain your convicted determination and the joy will always be with you. Let go of the fruits of your actions because nothing is done without the power of the divine that exists in all things. Be as the oak tree that never worries about how much light or water that it gets. Be transfixed on the divine promise that all things come to you just as the sun rises and the rain falls. Have your spiritual roots dig deep into the Earth Mother for your sustenance and you will become as majestic as the sacred oak.

Thank you Great One for allowing me to write these words of wisdom for all to read. Thank you Blessed Mother for watching over us with your divine mercy. Thank you, our ancestors for coming before and showing us the lessons of life that are the most important.  

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This is to my brothers of spirit, my tribe, that have the hounds on their heels and feel that they are faulting in step. I myself had these very hounds set out onto me that I myself did falter. The hounds that I take about are that of the shadow beasts called depression. As we run the run of life we get bombarded by the thousands of different message bits that stream at us like spring runoff. Hitting us and then moving away the same way that water hits a rock in the river. The only thing that is different with us is that we are trying to control the river and how it hits the rock. This in itself is impossible yet this is the case when the hounds of depression are at our heels. Life events are flowing around us like a soft stream or a torrent river depending if things are going well or if we are over burdened by trying to stop the water. In my case the depression came from trying to control all of my life events and failing to control anything. This frustration came into me and triggered the ego fear response which started the two year slide into the hole of depression that I put myself into. That hole was dark and very small.

The hounds look different to each person, but the hounds are there none-the-less. In some cases the hounds are coming from what seems to be an irresolvable situation where work is horrid and the home life is equally so. Sometimes it comes from physical, mental, exhaustion coupled with a pinched spiritual life as was my case.

I have a theory that many forms of depression happen because we turn away from our spiritual dedications and live in the psychotic world of the ego. This takes on many forms, but the form that I want to talk about is the division or separation from the “me from the myself.” This division or attempting to divide comes from the lack of spiritual grounding. In the absence of spirit the ego moves in to separate and divide what cannot be divided. Once the ego works its destructive magic the spirit is fully suppressed and anxiety, fear, helplessness, and despair follow. Of course these feelings come about when the object of the stress is before us. An example of this would that if you are feeling anxiety about work or home then that is where the greatest stress is located. The anxiety is a self-induced panic that is coming from the perception that the situation that is causing the stress is not going away. The truth is that the situation and its stress only exist in the mind. It is the mind that has placed the label of stress and only the mind that keeps holding onto that label. As with the Law of Attraction, ‘Like attracts like’ the more that we worry the more worry that bring into our lives. It is the same with the positive emotions as love attracts love.

The way out of this is too simple in principle yet seems impossible when the hounds are on your heels. Stop and drop the stress. As most of my readers follow an Earth Path, I would suggest walking barefoot on the Divine Mother. Allow the negative charges that are surging throughout your body be grounded out through your feet. As a Piscean I understand the joys and the grounding ability that Divine Mother has when I walk barefoot. Another way of grounding out is to take a bath in sea salt or even shower with sea salt. The salt also pulls the negative charged ions off of you instantly making you feel better.

Meditation or some other type of spiritual dedication is critical for the well being of all people. This reconnects you with source and allows the divine love to flow into your being like your arm that has fallen asleep so you move it and the blood flows in to wake up the arm.

Just as Black Elk, an Oglala Sioux Holy Man stated, “The first peace, which is the most important, is that which comes within the souls of people when they realize their relationship, their oneness with the universe and all its powers, and when they realize at the center of the universe dwells the Great Spirit, and that its center is really everywhere, it is within each of us.”

Brothers, take heart and take heed to these words. Look at your lives and cut away what has no purpose and only keep what brings happiness and is useful. Strive for the balance and the grounding that nature shows us every day. Unplug from the insanity that is displayed on the television and across the internet. Find a quite place and embrace your spiritual heritage. As Black Elk said, “perhaps you have noticed that even in the slightest breeze you can hear the voice of the cottonwood tree; this we understand is its prayer to the Great Spirit, for not only men, but all things and all beings pray to Him continually in different ways.”

I close in prayer.

Divine Father I thank you for having me type these words. You have blessed your Children with all manner of gifts. We humbly look to you for guidance and love as we continue through our day.

Divine Mother I thank you for the haven of this material world where we gain our substance and subsistence.

Blessings to all of you my Brothers and Sisters may this message reach you and impart its wisdom to you.   



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Why do we as people like to give so much of our personal power to others? It is a simple question that begs for a complex answer. The greatest reason is our quest for love. We are looking for unconditional love in the world and we forget that it is right here inside all of us. The place of emotional power is the fourth chakra, the heart chakra. Within the heart chakra the melding of the energies from the higher self and the earth energies are within the third chakra are felt. When this flow gets disrupted from stress and we do not reset the stress meter with meditation we can get in a state of non-feeling.

This state of non-feeling causes us to compromise ourselves by seeking for love and recognition from another source other than from within. Since we compromised our self it is easier to continue that self compromise especially if we had a small return of the love feeling that we seek. This continual self-compromise leads us down an ever rougher road until we are looking at the bleak landscape of broken relationships and continual heart ache. It is at this point that guilt comes knocking on your door. This perpetual bad advisor starts to fill the heart with its poison. Since we are now desperate for the love that we cannot “feel” we listen to the guilt that is filling us with its horrid advice and toxic actions. We listen until we believe that the divine truth and love that we seek is that voice of guilt. We become conditioned to the emotional feel response that guilt brings us and we substitute guilt for our own divinity. The heart is draped in a heavy dark cloth and put away. Guilt then brings in anger, loneliness, powerlessness, and frustration.

All of this can be reversed by becoming still. Let the moment be. Become present and just feel the peace that surrounds you. Take into accord that the divine acts and moves through you. Forgive yourself in this peace for allowing yourself to be a puppet of guilt. Have your emotional release and allow yourself to cry. As that energy is released look back into yourself and know that your heart is still there, unhurt, and filled with the power of divine love. Take back your power and remember this lesson and how you got there so that you will never be a victim of guilt again.

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